swintons asked: Ahh well it's just I have weird security issues, hence why I deleted my personal blog after those two girls who I know are shady-as-fuq and just really unfairly mean to people started stalking it. With one of them following it. Apparently that was grounds of me 'trying to hide the evidence?'. Seriously? Just...fucking hell. Anyway, I just use my emails for getting newsletters or notifications or things from school, not for personal use. ik it's weird but yeah lol sorry it's really nothing against you since I trust you a lot.

It's just...a lot messaging that went on really. People came to my defense and gave me support...others like unfollowed (someone I really liked) without question. Some were on-the-fence as if I could somehow had did that anon and it seemed like something I would do. I mean just...ugh. I want to just like and explain all the ways how it couldn't have been me but I figured doing it right away makes no sense since Sam's set in her ways right now. It's just as though...she has no trust for me and has no idea of who I am as a person. She just made an assumption, didn't even bother to confront me of this assumption, and decides to make a passive-aggressive post in which she attacks me and says that I'll only provide "stories" in my defense. Like seriously? Fuck whenever people make those posts of-fucking-course the support will be towards the OP. I just can't believe she didn't even give me a chance. She called me a twatwaffle, said I have anger management issues, and that "there's no point in lying since she knows it was me".

I wasn't aware that a) whenever people go to an ask box they automatically type something b) you could not go on someone's blog and look at their post because god forbid, following 330 people isn't a bit hard to navigate at all c) I have made posts that are shady & non-confrontational and never voice how I feel d) have never provided constructive criticism or called out IMPORTANT things. Seriously she just deduced me down to just a false facade and insults me on top of that.

I'm just really upset still. I was going to celebrate KHep's birthday tomorrow with others but now I have no motivation. I made all these graphics too and just...fuck. God I hate this.

I hope this doesn't get you down too much though but if you end up leaving, keep in touch. You and maybe one or two others were the only ones I'd give my email if you had no other real communications means.

Can I also say how exposed I feel as a human by her exposing where I go to school? Seriously as if that doesn't fucking give away who I am since how many Apexas are in the US? I would never do that to someone else. JFC DOES SHE KNOW MY ISSUES WITH PRIVACY AND SECURITY AND THE FACT I BARELY EVER TALK ABOUT MY PERSONAL LIFE ON HERE? GOD FUCKING DAMN IT.

Ugh sorry long rant but I'm getting on for the rest of the month I think. Just reply on livejournal xx ilu2 :*.

Haha I didn’t mean to make it about me. You’re the one this happened to and you’re telling me not to feel bad. I guess it just made me realize how exposed we are online and how quickly people will turn on you for no fucking reason and how few people will actually come to your defense (at least publicly) or be loyal to you. I think it was more that I already knew that was the case and this was just glaring evidence of a really extreme example that I couldn’t ignore. I still am just in awe of the fucked up-ness of it all. Why in the name of all that is holy would you not confront a person to their face about something like that??? That is just fucked up beyond belief.

And can I just say that you regularly call shit out and do not mince words with friends and strangers alike. You never hesitated to tell me that calling Audrey Hepburn beige was wrong. I mean we never agreed on her in the end but yeah you didn’t hold back with that shit. And I distinctly remember you reblogging a post about how Cleopatra was greek so casting Taylor wasn’t white washing (I remember because I disagreed lol). Now all of a sudden you’re supposed to think it was white washing?

I’m just genuinely sorry this happened to you and that you had no chance whatsoever to defend yourself or tell your side of the story. And yeah someone shared something about you that you wanted to keep private. That is just petty and vindictive as hell. Even if I knew for a fact someone was being a bitch to me, I would not sink that low. If anything, it’s a lesson learned (for me at least) about the false sense of security we can get in social communities like this. I would have been shaking if I was in your shoes too and it’s just reminded me that I really need to keep more emotional distance from tumblr, stop posting my opinions so much (I say as I ramble on about my opinion…) and just generally be more guarded.

Can we talk about some real issues though? Because I can’t log into pop culture haterade. I changed my email/password and my email is no longer working. THIS IS IMPORTANT. I already had my Woody Allen rant all planned out. That tumblr hadn’t even spread its wings yet ;_;